he makes me ridiculously sick at times. he has a way of annoying me,
\to the point where i'll just go to bed early to avoid thinking about him.
seems kind of crazy, but yeah. when he ignores my calls i get so flushed
with warmness ...not the good kind. its hard to explain. i dont know where
our relationship is going..=/ He says he loves me, and i love him too
with all my heart ...but sometimes i just dont feel it.
He writes these long blogs & poems about me.. & i get this 5 minute high
..but then i wonder if he means what he says
or if hes just that good with words..i love him to the point where i hate him.
because i hate feeling like this. i get mad over the SMALLEST shit,
it doesnt make any sense. i never used to be like this...
I find myself trying to make him upset to see if he really cares..
and when he maintains his cool, i get mad. its stupid..iono, maybe im just